Reboot
I really enjoy blogging now; however …
As I progress with the blog, sharing and imagining you listening in, I didn’t realize a gradual shift happening in my own perspective.
It wasn’t just the writing …
In my real world over the last couple of months, I’ve been with various family members in different cities.
I went from the Colorado Front Range to the dry heat of Western Colorado for a long visit with my Grambabies,
and shortly after, to a sibling gathering in Southern Colorado – the first of its kind, not for a birthday or holiday.
It was special because
we were missing one younger sister who died from covid in 2021, and
our recently widowed sister would join us from Phoenix.
In other words, there were strong undercurrents of unexpressed emotion.
A few days after that, I was on my way to Kansas with my aunt, helping her drive home.
My 12-day stay in Kansas instigated a kind of reconfiguration of my daily life …
My lone writer habits were unplugged.
Separated from my iMac, I packed only a flash drive to keep up the blog.
Every day, I shared regular meals with my aunt, as opposed to my habit of eating-as-needed.
I went with her to social engagements and we shopped together.
All the while, I used the blogging commitment to keep a tether to my real life.
Little did I know that a metamorphosis was in the works during all the traveling and being with so many different people.
I was too busy to keep track, as I normally would, of the movements of growth.
Upon reflection…
There are some hints in the blogs before this one, where I made several key points about unconscious response.
In Essence: Impulsive reactions – not logic – flip us out of a threatening situation.
In The Natural Power of Good: The body keeps time for you, pacing your development.
In Personhood: Your life history is dynamic when extracted from life outside of you.
In Clashes of Titans: Respect is knowing it’s impossible to be in someone else’s place.
In What’s Your Comfort Level: See inside yourself to know what’s happening.
In Your Very Own Transformation: Your mind makes you a distinct kind of organism.
Yeah … I was experiencing an unconscious metamorphosis of organismic proportions…
When you need a reboot…
I learned the power of logic to block emotion working with highly expressive people.
When a person was overwhelmed by emotions, I would describe their phases to show them the logic and sequence in their own life.
At the imposition of my analysis, they would become calm.
In the end, they would say it made sense, but more in their perception than in understanding.
One woman said, “I may not understand it, but it feels right to me.”
Resistance is futile …
A large percentage of at least the American population is, by now, pretty familiar with the basic workings of computers.
Life makes sense in computers because they are based on simple logic and sequences.
Like our minds, computers have two types of memory: One is accessed for use now (conscious). The other is the large, stored memory (unconscious).
Like computers, we sometimes crash from information overload, having an outdated operating system.
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Over the last month, while I was busy with people, events, unprocessed emotions – all the while, writing -
my nonconscious organism was managing my well-being.
What I felt was my “operating system” being reconfigured – or being updated - or being switched to new software.
I wasn’t sure which, until today.
Yesterday the information overload was complete and my old “software” tilted.
Today, it was shut down and reboot time.
Retraining the operator
I’m coming up into the new system, and I may finish this blog tomorrow, my 24th day.
Separating emotional response from symptoms that register as feelings, you become identified as the system “operator.”
You - by conscious mind - can check in on your organism’s position to see what kind of change growth is making.
On my 24th day, the second sequence of twelve phases completes adjustments to my personal priorities.
The trend of growth is upward and positive.
You might say, human growth strains toward love on the far side.
My priorities are shifting to prioritize people over writing; not to quit writing -
just consciously recognizing that people hold first place - because love is the highest human value.
For me, the variety, number, and concentration of events involving family and friends was so much greater than in the routine of my work.
With each situation, different relationships came in and out of focus, giving my intuition a workout.
I did have fair warning …
While in Western Colorado, in a rambling conversation with a good friend, she picked up on my casual reference to “insulating” myself for the siblings gathering.
“Why would you do that?” she asked.
“I don’t know. It’s just what I do,” I replied.
Trading thoughts about that simple statement exposed years of unfounded fears that turned into my “easy” solution: insulation.
In stark daylight, the unreasonable baseless habit lost its cover.
The combination of unacknowledged fear, being out of my home and habit,
talking in safe company, and the occasion soon to be enjoyed – contrary to my anticipation –
all of this did its work to turn me toward the good, away from the un-good in my mind.
I have done quick forensics on this string of ordinary events,
but what was accomplished for me - a la 12 Phases™ -
is nothing short of phenomenal …
to me.
The slow growth over the previous nine months - hardly worth mentioning to others –
catapulted forward in eye-opening, heart-softening, inner strength-building performances of new abilities
all worked out in the blind fumbling of my intuition,
all for reasons yet to be revealed by life’s machinery.
The point is, all this “work” is for the benefit of one person – me, in this case …
and for you, in every occasion of your life.
I have to overstate the point because my growth means nothing to you and
your growth means everything to you!
To tell your story is to put the fabric of humanity under a microscope.
Dan Reynolds is the lead singer of the rock group Imagine Dragons.
You wouldn’t know it from his energetic performances, but he has a condition called ankylosing spondylitis (AS).
He endured chronic pain and stiffness for about five years before he was diagnosed with ankylosing spondylitis (AS) in his early 20s.
“There were nights when I was in so much pain that I was on the ground in tears, just writhing in pain,” he says. “I went to so many doctors.”
Reynolds even remembers one show where his pain was so intense that he stood still on stage, unable to move.
Everything changed the day Reynolds met his rheumatologist.
“For me, this was a game changer,” he explains. “I had been in such pain for so long with so many doctors not knowing what it was, that my first feeling was relief.”
Once he began his treatment, Reynolds saw immediate results, which motivated him to stick to a “clean” lifestyle that many would not associate with a rock star constantly on tour, performing before thousands of fans on any given night.
Knowing this about Dan Reynolds enlightens us about lyrics he writes. Here are a couple of my favorites:
Waves by Imagine Dragons
Time doesn't hear if you ask it to wait
So own all your tears and just roll with the waves
Life, it could change, it could change in a day
So cherish your years and just roll with the waves
Time doesn't hear, so roll with the waves
Whatever it takes by Imagine Dragons
I'm an apostrophe
I'm just a symbol to remind you that there's more to see
I'm just a product of the system, a catastrophe
And yet a masterpiece, and yet I'm half-diseased
And when I am deceased
At least I'll go down to the grave and die happily
And leave the body and the soul to be a part of thee
I do what it takes
Whatever it takes
'Cause I love the adrenaline in my veins
I do whatever it takes
'Cause I love how it feels when I break the chains
The Diane Theory as hypothesis
You need not study the 12 Phases™ to be more successful in life. But it can help to know the method to life’s madness.
This is the service science performs for humankind:
to increase the facts about ourselves and the world around us so we can live – and love - better.
Proofs by my personal studies are not enough. I can only describe what I am convinced is a system inherent in humans.
Externally, our total environment is a convergence of natural forces that affect us for our good.
Life and the human universe are generally contained in four main forces:
1. Time in orbits – a cosmic order
2. Life - as a force shaping and reshaping historic events in the global society.
3. Worldlines: Individual lives, one by one, plotted on the Life Cycle Phases™.
4. Intersections: where separate worldlines of individuals have contact.
Autonomous motivation is the life force that keeps you alive as you.
While the “real” world holds your attention
and helps you imagine and work for a material good,
your organism collects the bits
that directly contribute to your independent development.
Intuition is the instinctive ability to navigate change autonomously, managing feelings, thoughts, intentions, and emotions on the fly, minute by minute.
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